wants and escapism

blues in the morning, blues at suppertime

it's a long trod home
you're wearing on not your own
what you have left is gone
speaking of thoughts to noone
because you should have taken
the long road out, into territory
unseen by human eyes, electricity
like everything is mostly hidden
except when dangerous
forgiving lost occasion
of problems won't come later
the solution's how you bear
of what would come to scare
the thought would be erased
and nothing put in its place
it is unprecedented,
that you should be
subjected to this
only you would have known
calling it all your own
problems sought and chased after

mismatched journal entry no. 1

swinging out, faceless deconstruction at the pond where you birthed your first appetite you easily fell in but knowing you, you came in and saw me about a jaw-wrist attention connected to the bliss and good feelings surrounded by lovers you are hidden away anyay because of the stories people tell making it all seem that it's all over for you because you need to come through somewhere in the wilderness the lyrical attraction of shocking events he wide-eyed appearance of what you have left these men to many things, but let me show you it can be easier though you have not grown again afer your operation it is exceeding even the possibility of exoneration you are becoming a criminal you are not who you once were you should have taken a chance whre you could end now you are talking to these strange men who have designs on yor mind and you are trapped in between you wish you reather didn't know because if you did your life would b over you should know that the way words work is to corral them into a slight circle, where everything seems wrong and there are difficulties all about you and you cannot stand the deliberation and exoneration and I am worried that i may have not been making sense in the everyday style of forgetting the lyrics and you can see what matters in the end when all is revealed to show that you can take it at face value always following the wishes of others you are, and now divining secrets and eating ruth of what can be you are stopping at nothing to go closer beyond the pale you forget wishing for truth of what can be found and forgetting truths of reconciliation hanging on to nothing you are strangely opposed to the idea that all things should come and in the greif and confusion of the namesake that is written.

apreciation

inside out
torn about
you don't know
going so
slowly now
finding how
anyway you've
got it to be
only you and me

wanted misgivings

-----only you
--------would have known
---------turned the world up
------------years go by, and you sit
--------------alone disaster sits with you
---------------millenia go by, and you
------------------are still there
-------------------what you could have wanted
--------------------is already passed
---------------time forgetting constantly exposing
------------maybe she'll have truth, of what
-------------we could have done
-------------the eternal lady
-------------sitting statuesque
--------------on her throne
--------------understood,
--------------captivating,
----------------though she does not move
-------------------maybe later you'll find peace
-------------she says
---------------only you would have to wait
------------------for time to remember you
------------------she can do anything
-------------------hissing quietly, fissy fussy fit
------------------running adjucnt to her possibility
-------------------adresses found in stresses declared
-------------------and everyone left alone apart distant
-----------------only you would want to forget what you can
-----------------over time, it seeps through
--------------forgetting lies made up to damage you
--------------time tells sly jokes, catch it on the flip side
---------------glimmering light shone through the reflective half
--------------on the other side of tommorow
--------------will you find your love?

----we wanted to leave
-----------you said no
-----------telling us why
----------speaking out your duty
------------forgotten ageless time
------------bringing your numbers
----------what you wanted, lost
-----------all is forgotten
-----------in the time-travel
------------of opposites
-------------deep in time
-------------forgotten
--------------only you
---------------bringing what's left
-----------------to bridge the gap
------------------only to be forgotten
------------------ending in pity
-------------------a number, to noone

only you

taking away what you grasped
--------------only moments
--------------thinking sadly
--------------only you
------we should
--------take you
-----------away
--------only made
--------seperate decision
---------working with language
----------maybe not
-----------you're never there
-----------finding you've left
------------has rent a huge tear
-------------and all is wrought
-------------because of you
--------------we should
--------------take you
-------------away

maybe someday soon

it'll seem, as if it were
all a dream
coming and going on open roads
only you would see
what lay before you
on the shocks, the comeuppance,
the limits and lack of understanding
forgetting tommorow and just letting
things slide
only you would have known
only side would have seen
what we wanted mostly now gone
far-reaching possibility
and understanding
emptying out yourself

findings and exoneration

stumble down my street
hit the bridge canal
knowing what you eat
is better then your hell
finding missing places
events to run in mazes
things you shouldn't do
if they come for you
what you wanted to do
today, tommorow, forever
everything against everything
that's the way it's told
the solution's not so bold
it's scary when it's sold
it's odd, and strange, and yet
you'll get what you get
when they all come through
will it mean something to you?

freedom and misgivings

understanding that you've taken it too far
knowing that you've journeyed too far
to see a capture you've wanted and then
it all goes out in the blink of an eye
figuring problems designed for your kind
and finding them out wrong
you continued when it was too late
you said maybe when it had to wait
something newer makes the sun go 'round
on this cavalcade of kooks downtown...

wonders and apparitions

amazed at the resounding shocks
the palace beat to bet the fox
the only one who knew so is
the one who stopped this unseemly fizz
only you would make the world seem
like a character from a strange dream
what you wanted now will be
only that which you see
and concluding next in the
alternate dimension to be
the one you wander in will take
the proverbial cake
only to make it seem
that it was only a dream
and you were...
standing on the docks throwing rocks
throwing rocks
while the seagulls dance above
in their tiny mountain home
abode to noone known
secret now, to the throne
the passion now awaits
to be the king let's grace
to sing his earthly praise
what is saved what is lost
only now we find the cost
problem found problem fixed
now we all can go to sleep
and rise again, where slumber brings
in the land of mortal kings

running adjacent

understood to be the cause
only you would know
the solution resides within
the heart
and the stolen one knows
what he has done
and only his help can stop him
from what they have
conclusive evidence
made ready for your approach
endlessly declaring left over
maybe you'll find it later
forgetting all the cares
only you would have known

misconstrued apprehension

hidden is what you lack
behind the black, leather-faced
frontage supposing to be
an anger shouted against you see
the last second thought
before turmoil
before the hearts begin to boil
and ring their toil in the leather-faced
frontage-heart, murky and circled with color
mystery to me what it is you see
drawn up into confusion and turmoil
the mystery soups they broth and boil
hidden now from me, what it is you see
to truly be in the projection of all life
growing and rising and rooting and then
all things are done in the blink of the eye
the way the eye catches from its leatherbound room
and comes in too soon, to mean what is truly there
duly done and sacrificed against these men and their advice

falling from you

hidden only seen
knowledge made will be
what conclusively
means the attitude
of what we have to do
kept away for a long time
only you, who understood
the things they do
that they can be
only you want to know
bringing it out from you
onto the new room-veiw
in your house, built sturdy
ready for the day
opposites attract
and you know
what to do
when they follow you

hidden circumstance

lacks of fusion
in conclusion
issues made
refusal demonstrated
hidden places left,
desire not a note
only we could have forgot
what goes under, torn asunder
written through, easily you
bleeding into the fabric of life
a narrow message, on the rooftop
angered circumstance, made angel
dearest to me now, who are you
the black asphalt of the pavement
hearing what you want to hear

blinded by a vision

you saw, you were
making sense out of things
they said, they did
walking out among them
only you, what we do
bringing times to the forefront
only you would know what we had done
to conclude offering a second thought
a moment of tenderness, a rebirth
forgetting rememberances
only you would have known
the costs could be so hard
what was told, meant to you
leant in your direction
and edifying, forgetting
ideas of love and labors lost

figuring out silences

the limits exposed,
teeth are bared
made ready for it all
flying in through
running a madman on a mission
into nothing
you are nothing
moonman, take yourself
leave yourself alone
together with what you have
moonman, take your time
the way you mean, the way you come through
my own responses were meant for the job
and conclusive in working out ideas
they always came for me
moonman, where are you
out there so far, startling star
into memory forgotten ages left
ideas made ready for the fall
of all that's yet to come
they will know as the go
through abject faculties
and understanding confusing
emptiness declared

maybe impossible

gaining on this life
dripping with sentiment
goals and encroaching boundaries
recycling over and over in measured step
all you want to do, feel yourself go
on maybe trying to break free
all of your resources, strange
running wild into the wilderness
defined over and over, shout it out
at your limit try to get there somehow
ideas set free, released for a purpose
chosen to perform, the truth evident
only you could have known, trusting
in the ending and truth and power
what we wanted mostly lost, forgotten
suggested for some other kinder world
remembered never forgotten forever

running oddly

strange how it seems,
that we could be
finding you finding me
only us, we paid the price
to make it best for those who waited
and in the end, when all is clear
you'll come through soon,
your language dear
and all you have
be sold that day
forgetting the rules
and how they ran
only you could have done this
made it seem, like you're starting anew
only boldened by the challenge of the chooser
changed by the ways of the magician
only you would know how it goes
pontificating strangely,
running oddly through
you're only doing
what I've done to you

seperate destinies

stars flung and ideas made
knowledge gained and prices paid
only we could have done
what would belong to us
finding only strangeness
venus drawn in shades of vibrant hue
out of ruin, becoming her
into belonging living free
only we could have done
what would have meant
to be only for you
meaning something extra special
knowledge made, the queen is paid
knowing what has done its day
wandering in through radiant forest
glimmering sight on the cover of everything real
knowing what had been hidden before
life the something can't escape
knowledge made gained and understood
matters meant directly for the attitude
only you would have known that we could have
what we would have done held only for you
I know only what has been told,
secrets so old secrets so bold
ideas in logic what we can begin
only meaning what we have begun
wanting something else we have
only we could have done
allowed in past future tense
arrived one day, future told
presence made, fracture bold
the life we could have brought
meaning that we should have done
only we could have done what we wanted
what we wanted only forgotten, power declared
ideas lodged kept apart, only forgotten
what we wanted mostly only, left for forgetfulness
all are left for the taking, last kiss
only you would have known, because of this
you want to have knowledge of what you will
only what we can forget fragments of what we lost
can you forget what you have lost, only the cost
they are watching, only you could have forgotten
meant for the future reality defined
made in the progression, my own life reality
living only for what we'd forgotten